the past few days been such a trying time for me. on friday i was trying to upload songs into my fon when suddenly everything went missing from our external hd. i was so damn pissed off and i cried… not so much for the songs which can be dl again its the precious pics.. thousands of them… i enjoy taking pictures and i wud save them in my pc. ever in one holiday tt’s to US we took over 1000 pics. coz we went to LA, disneyland, universal studios and the beaches…. and now my lovely baby pics - all wiped out. everything… i felt very sad coz those are precious memories for me. and i don have a back up for all of the pics. i scolded hubby for deleting the files fm our internal hd. when i suddenly remembered that he could restore the files at a later date… and tadaaa… its back. pheeewwww.. luckily those precious pixs of lil baby is saved.
On satuday, which is my sleeping day i decided to spend some time with my baby coz i felt that he feels neglected and bored at home facing the walls and only his bibik to care him while his parents are at work. both of us working on night. so i took him to the playground for a short time. then i decided to bring him over to my cousin wedding when it proved to be a very bad decision…… my baby terkena ‘teguran’ orng. at first i realised there was extremely alot of bugs on my table. black beetle like thing and wen i looked up, i saw lots of them on the curtain but not at other ppl tables. a few hours later around 8+pm, aqiel started wailing he cried so hard tt it makes me scared and he cried for 1 1/2 hours straight. i decided to leave after he had cried for 30mins wen my aunt (mak pengantin) told us to go upstairs tt’s wen he started to cry even louder and his face turned red and he was looking up at the ceiling and moving his eyes left and rt.. it was scary. my dad and uncles did wat they culd. they say the prayers and read the yasin and verses fm quran but nothin helped my baby. we decided to go to the dr tho i know in my heart medically he is ok.
wen we took the stairs, aqiel stopped crying and wen we reached the wedding area, he cried again. by this time everyone there was curios and they suspected something is wrong coz aqiel been crying for almost an hour now. a lady (ustazah) who is gd at handling such ‘things’ tried to help but nothing works. even the dr told me medically he is healthy. he gave me a letter to go to hosp. diagnosis? crying for inx. hahah… i cried when i saw him suffering so much. he looked really scared. i could see the terror in his eyes. but i was helpless… there is nothing i cud do for my son. luckily my dad nad step mom and aunts are with me. coz i pass aqiel to mom to handle as i started to tremble and felt faint. by 12mn, after my aunt read the yasin, he cooled down and slept soundly. i slept beside him and hug him tight….
on sunday morning, amaley woke up with a bright smile. he was smiling and laughing like his usual self. i felt relived. i am sure things are back to normal. we went home and hubby was sleeping as he had jt returned fm night shift. i pestered him to bring us out for the weekend. to spend some time with amaley. at first he doesnt want to go to the wedding then he agreed to go jt with me. but in the end he says we culd all go. i warned him if amaley started crying don put the blame on me. i asked my dad for his opinion and my dad and aunt told me its ok to go… but its a wrong move….. we reached the place at 4+. i told hubby to hold amaley with him. he did. amaley was extremely quiet and was sulking. he didnt smile. not even to mama dida. whom he liked to be cuddled with. he refused others to carry him even my dad. so hubby and me took turns. all my uncles and aunts asked abt his condition & i told them he is alright now. after the wedding, we decided to follow dad to go to mama along house. at first aqiel was fine he was smiling but as the azan maghrib is nearing, he became uneasy and started crying. his cries get louder and harder. i looked at my watch and i realised its the same time as yest. we bring him to mama’s bedroom and tried to pacify him. dad tried to help by resding the holy verses. but nothing helped. in the end we decided to go back to my bro place and will call my uncles who knows abt this stuffs to help. but they too cant do anything, the ‘thing’ kept on pestering my baby. it wud go then come back. so we decided to call my uncle’s ustaz.
it got really scary here. when he was told to come, he knows what is disturbing my son. he told my dad to read Al fatihah and blow at his rt ear and Surah An Nas and blow and repeat it. baby cooled down and he falls asleep. soon the ustaz arrived at 11+ and the first thign he said was, hmmm bau wangi eh… macam bunga cempaka/yasmin. our hair stands. wen aqiel wakes up, he immediately cried again. and we brought him outside to the hall area. the ustaz asked for his name and the spelling in arab. he mentioned something abt his name. his wife the ustazah took amaley fm me and asked him whats wrong baby? who is dirtubing you? and she turned him and massage his spine. it became red and swollen and amaley cried harder and was struggling. then she massages the shoulder blade and continues. she said ‘angin’ and its painful for him. she even showed me tt baby cant turn to his sides coz tt things is there. by now amaley was still stuggling and crying but i din cry coz i know he is is safe hands. my mom too came to my bro house in the wee hours. everyone was extremely worried for their one and only grandson. they said prayers and did their best and told me not to worry he will be fine. the ustazah gave me salt to rinse him after every bath and reminded me to say prayers for him wen bedtime.
ustaz told hubby he will ‘buy’ my son which he cost 10 cents.. so sad heheheh its like wat my grandma did to my cuzzin ariana too. she bought her in the hope tt she will be safe and sound. same for amaley and he changed baby name to Ieqmal. coincidently its a combination of his own name Aqiel Amaley. so we called him by tt name at times. i was told Ieqmal terkena benda tu at the wedding itself but we din wat to blame anyone for the incident. the ustazah also told me tt ieqmal can see extra things. ‘mata dia tajam eh. boleh nampak benda ‘extra’ ‘ she spelled Allah and Mohamad on both his eyes and forehead. the ustaz also told hubby his forehead - ada lekuk kecil macam (something) which is gd. don need to say it here nanti org ingat i am exagerating. but tt’s wat he told hubby and it makes me happy. he told hubby to jaga budak nie baik2 ada potensi… Alhamdullilah… I sya Allah…. act i realised tt since his birth its like the mark on ppl forehead tt is pious and prays alot. i hope Aqiel aka Ieqmal, akan menjadi anak yg soleh, taat pada ibu bapa, keluarga dan agama…. Insya Allah……
Baby, Mummy loves you alot tt words cant describe i am willing to trade place with you. To suffer for you…. Love you my son……..
Love,
your mommy
